I got up that morning thinking I was going to a doctor’s appointment. My thyroid is acting up again so I was Hashtag Adulting. The thing was, I also had a ticket to be in the live studio audience for the RuPaul show, a new talk show taping a three-week test to run on select Fox stations (New York, Phoenix, Los Angeles, Houston, San Francisco, Minneapolis, and Charlotte).
I was in my local Marina del Rey Ralph’s grocery store and came upon two giggling and very excited young women in front of an impressive Hot Wheels display. A longtime devotee (As you can see, I still have the blue plastic Hot Wheels case jammed full from when I was a kid) so I stopped to check out the display.
My latest observations of the human animal have lead me to some conclusions….
What we do for love is vast and epic. And not always right.
So much of life hinges on appearances and worries about what others will think, about situations we get ourselves into where we have to hide our love and affection for one another.
Love in secret or love now given and later taken away. What’s public, what’s private, and who decides? Especially when we bring in social and cyber etiquette and integrity regarding relationships into the mix. Which affects us deeply whether we think it does or not. We watch, consume and act on what we see in the ether and tell ourselves stories based on likes, posts and photos of what may or may not be reality. Even when we actually talk to each other we are in most occasions full of fear and afraid.
We fall in love so very easily, but we are also so guarded, often trapped in situations that guarantee someone will inevitably be hurt.
The feeling that you’ve been living in your body a long time, and sometimes you drop in and really feel your feet grounded to the earth. Other times you feel like you are floating, detached, watching yourself, watching your life happen to you with the ebb and flow, the macro and micro-moments. There is the feeling of being comfortable with who you are and what you bring to the table, but wanting to learn more. Being content with what you have earned and been given, and also with what has been removed, either by the universe or your own choice.
Sometime a moment is upon you to settle. To take stock; to do some accounting.